so last night, i was feeling super irritated and just...asd;fkljrrrawwwwrrrr
and the feeling lasted throughout the day today...i woke up and it was just like...arggggghhhhh.
so i kept eating.
and celine, i totally agree with you...
"i think food has become something to just indulge in to stop thinking about and worrying about anything"
which by the way, i had to go back to our msn history to look this up. just thought i'd let you know ;)
i didn't even organize my notes today, which was #1 on my mental-to-do-list for today.
but i did do a spending report on Jan & Feb on excel (disastrous by the by). that was basically the most productive thing i did today. i was also supposed to figure out res just cause i thought the app would be up March 1st. but it's actually March 3rd. i also spent a while surfing job sites in singapore. and i was feeling excited yet super overwhelmed at the same time. and then the feeling soon turned into stress. ugh. i don't even have a proper resume yet. so who am i kidding. am i right or am i right.
sighs.
i even passed up on shopping today.
i know this feeling. it happened often at pond. hence me setting the record of watching 16 ep dramas in less than 24 hours...or staring out my window watching cars go in and out of a parking lot until i fell asleep.....and this is why i'm questioning so much on whether i should live on res in 4th year. no doubt about the convenience factor, but i find it so mentally taxing...so many mixed feelings. if you asked me last semester whether i wanted to live on res, i would have said yes in a heartbeat. so it's weird how i'm making this such a big deal. but i dunno, i just............ don't like admitting that i miss home-----and i think this is a huge reason why i've been feeling so emo today.
i miss everyone a;sldkfjas;dlkfajs;ldkarjelkrj;aekla.
i think i even miss my broken bed...(the spring wires have gone haywire).
but ya know what, i thought about this...and after a few simple events tonight...
....bottom line is......I'm in HK guys. this is my getaway and i wanted this sooooo bad. so why the blood am i doing this to myself? i've got a bunch of good ppl here with me, a cool roommate ;), freedom, and the food is more than awesome here, and ya there's school, but i'm right by the waters and mountains.......so come on now.........what more can i ask for. right right? (a bunch of you are probably in shock with all this optimism right now...cause i'm feeling goosebumps as i type this) but seriously, things have been more than all right so far...sooo....i should just appreciate it all. yayayayayayayyaaaaa?
and it's not like i can't talk to the rest of you who are all over the world right now...whats modern technology for right? exactly.
my goodness. totally not how i wanted today's post to turn out...but whatevs. c'est mon blogggggg. asdk;lfajsldkfjasl;kdf
BUT ANYWAYS...things i did today...
msn'ed with a bunch of peeps...
had a semi-fam dinner at Seafront...
watched half of Bucket List...
had a chance to watch the television today due to temporary lock-out of room....there are 12 channels, and about 10 are the same. now i know why ppl don't watch tv in rez. there were like 2 shows on.
oh ya. and good bonding sesh-es today.
see. at the end of the day.......................................it'll all be a-ok :)
i just need to be reminded once in a while.
heh. it's also end of Feb.
so hello March :S
oh and i also dl'ed raymond lam's cd.
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