yays to nays.

whhhhhy hello there.

well well well. where to begin.

life was same old same old up till the 13th-17th where i went to Lanjut, Malaysia with my aunt's church for a retreat. it was aiiiight. there were about 5 ppl my age, and the rest were ahjummahs and ahjusshis (aunties/uncles) and halmunis and halobujeehs (g-mas/g-pas). but we were secluded on a golf/beach resort and the view was naice. buffet 3 times a day, and i slept almost after every meal. i surprised myself with how pro of a napper i am. damn. anyways, learned a couple of things here and there and other than that...it was just OK.

then the next trip was Tioman, Malaysia with my cousin and her colleagues on the 20th to 23rd. now this trip was bannnngin. sickkkkk beaches. we stayed at Nazri's Place and i definitely recommend this place to everyone. these resorts only run 6 months a year because apparently during the other half, the waters get really rough and it's just not safe for tourists. well, food was awesome. we were served like kings. and i snorkeled for the first time and LOVED it. saw so many cool fish and it was fun feeding them bread. there were times where i'd put the bread right in front of my face and they'd come swarming at me...like they were ready to kiss me. but then too many would bombard my face and i'll swim away screaming. taboo was the main game of the trip...many funny nights. and once again, i surprised everyone and myself, again, with my napping skills. i can sleep ANYWHERE, ANYTIME. i don't know what it is. maybe it's just Asia. but don't worry. i saw the sun all right. the only part of my body that isn't burnt is my...ass. it's as white as snow. serious. i look more philipino/malay/indian than ever. gaah. and man. my legs are disgustingly marked with mosquito bites here and there. sighs. but whatevs. it was def good timesssss.

today was my first day at the hospital.
soooo um. i dislike hospitals to begin with. they give me the feeling of...death. i'm working in the health screening department...psh whatever that means. basically i'm one of the counter girls who register patients and put away their pee and "stool" samples. the whole day, i was telling patients how to give the sample...without knowing what it was. but i just googled it. and um EW. anyways. all the other girls are malays and indians. mmmmmmm. i seem to fit right in. ya right! but the whole day was overwhelming. impatient patients, rude nurses, mean doctors...bah. i almost got yelled for misplacing a file until she realized she had it all along in her office. and she didn't even say sorry! geeze. but it was the longest 8 hours. ever. and um, yeah, i don't like how they all refer to me as Dr. Wong's niece. it's not the most satisfying feeling. oh well. i'm just going to take this as a time-filler and take it for what it is. ugh. i was comparing this to school just now...and i almost convinced myself that school was a lil more appealing than the hospital. :S

sighs.

so after watching Ktran's video of Joce videotaping her pack...i suddenly got really really sad. i still miss it. and everyone. it's been a little over 3 weeks, and it still hurts. maybe i just got a weak and sensitive heart (haha like since when right). but it's true! sighs. and i just had a friend email me of all the places she should go shop in HK and i can't even answer her. cause i don't know haha. um alikoh mall? but yeah. i greatly disappointed myself. 4.5 months there and i still don't know my way around. but that's like saying 20 years in TO and not knowing how to take the bus until 3 years ago.

and ahhh exchange report. um, it's like due in 6 days isn't it. soooo, yeah, not happening. yikes.

anyways. it's only 10 pm and i'm exhausted. i guess many early days to come now.

I MISS YOU =(
please comment so that i know you are all alive. ngoys ngoys.

okay...

look what happens with a slight change of environment...
i move 3 hours away...and there's a lack of update for 5 days cause i have nothing....to say.
geeze.

so um.
- been depressed. emo'd. no mood to even reflect. missing ppl like mad.
- been eating a lot. the g-rents are crazy on the food.
- wisdom teeth are nicely situated in my mouth. no need to pluck.
- no mood to shop.
- feasting on bread. lovin it.
- ish hot.
- fb'n till the break of dawn.
- 10 pm curfews.
- i should have been on YLBFB tonight. i'll youtube it tomo.
- i still haven't unpacked. literally living out of a suitcase. can't find anything
- and guesssssssss who's living in ASSINIBOINE. MOI. avec..........well myself. got a bachelor room. but guess who else is living.....perhaps in the same building????????
- maybe TO won't be so bad......................................NOT.

indescribable.

i am now in Singapore. at my ah ma's place.
i've been locked in my room since 4:30 pm yesterday.
it is now 4:30 pm today.

i only go out to eat and pee.
the maid has to come up to get me to eat or bring me food.

i've finished (well somewhat) sorting out Ktran's 20+gigs worth of pics.

this feeling that i'm feeling right now is unexplainable.
it's worse than getting one C a year (and you all know how academics get to me).
you guys keep popping into my head. and looking at pictures help and don't help at the same time.

i appreciate all the goodbye emails and messages, and i want to reply.
but refuse to because i don't want to say bye again (bah but don't worry. i'll get to it soon).

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i feel so. pwned.