so wipeeeeed.

i'm so tired. so tired. can't keep eyes opened.
but my notes and binders are disastrous and my room is still a mess. my "blue" (damn great wall shirt made my whole laundry blue) laundry is still in the laundry bag...gaaaahhhhhhh. my hkust email is bombarded with so much junk and group member assign parts and ahhhhhhh...........

and here i am. sitting in front of facebook. refreshing the page every 5 mins to check for J-La's pics. AHAHAHAHA.
and every time i refresh, another exchange kid's spring break album will come up and i'd look at it and.......there goes my whole night.

i barely listened in both classes today. well more so in entre. played connect the dots and doodled the whole time with ktran. couldn't pay attention in brand.
then had congee dinner with JLa, Joce, Wes, and Ktran and exchanged China trip stories with Joce. then went to Seafront and grabbed rice and choi for me. wahahhaha.

came back and had HALF a convo with Haesu Lee. JUTGULEK? where the hell did you disappear off to?!??! I HAVE MORE TO ASK AND YOU HAVE A LOT MORE TO TELL ME.

then just bummed, looked at more pics, and Kerks got back and exchanged more stories.

it's good to see everyone again.

i think back, and China worked out well. everything went pretty smoothly even with all the risks we took and all the sketchiness. sighs. good timesss.

i'll write out the 11 days soon. it's all on paper. no worries Ktran.

i'm so worried for strat tomorrow. who cancels a lecture just to go over a midterm cause he got so "frustrated from grading our exams".

can't wait to get pwned tomorrow...cause "it's all part of the experience".
eff.

China'ED x 11

I'm back.

- and i can't breathe. nose running like mad. so sick.
- i refuse to unpack and clean...
- i have about 100 emails to go through
- 10 loads of laundry to do. fine. maybe like 2
- mad room cleaning to do, my desk is non-existant
- 50 pages worth of perez hilton to catch up on
- a gajillion Xiao Zhu webposts to read
- 4 courses to catch up on (omg i got pwned HARD on midterms. !@#$%. why are my group members so hardcore. why!?!)
- an ep of OTH to watch...
- and an 11 day blog to write.

ya.

so um. i'm going to go take a nap. bye.

P, F, P, F---PFFT

E: "GAAAH what is that!"
J: "hey, it's a secada"
*J walks super close to it*
J: "yeah psh guys, it's just a secada"
A: "are you sure? looks like a cockroach"
*J walks even closer than close*
J: "ok fine, maybe it'a a roach"

*15 seconds later*
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *high pitch scream*
J: "AHHH guys AHHHHH, the roach just touched my foot!!!!!!!!!!"

pwned.
but the cockroach actually chased after her. i saw.

I seriously hate exams. I hate it. Studying is a waste of life.
I'm caught inbetween the exchange mentality of to eff it, or to try.
But I CAN'T NOT try. Cause, i will actually FAIL. just trrrussst, i have it in me to. soo...it's like totally killing me. But a letter P and F is just so unsatisfying at the same time. I don't know. Shoot me. I feel like rocking back and forth (my infamous pose for those who all know me). Perhaps a trip to the Dong Gu will put things back into perspective. First thing tomorrow.

Hong Kong has the 2nd largest market for Ferraris (Japan is #1).
Hot damn, talk about being at the right place at the right time AHAHHHH.

"i just lowled"
"you just what? did you actually just READ out L-O-L?"

I miss ppl watching.
I'm going to sit in the middle of UST one day, and just stare.

Can ppl please update their blogs more?
I get so disappointed every time I click on my links of blogs that I'm SUPPOSED to read but have absolutely nothing NEW to read!
I always let out a sigh and hang my head in disappointment...
And then go to Xiao Zhu's forum and blog where I can count on new udpates and then I get all smiles again and gush over my screen mmmehehehheee.

but. psh. you all suck.

haesu lee. be online. tom. don't forget.

STRESSED.

i keep telling myself, you are on exchange, you are on exchange, just passssssss.

but um, how to pass when no study?

how to pass when english like this?

GAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

- Xiao Zhu is in HK again on April 1st. but you need tix. it's some Pepsi conference. what to do. umumum.
- Wu Zun and Calvin will be in HK tomorrow promoting Romantic Princess. yayaya? nah...
- i killed the mosquito, or at least i think it's a mosquito, that bit me twice this morning.
- i hate this weekend.

Quotes:
"You don't chew when you eat your oranges"
"Woaahoo. Way to make me self-conscious"

"Are dumplings like potstickers?"
"What are potstickers?"
"SO yes, they are potstickers"

"I get free incoming calls"
"What??? No way."
*So we tried, her balance was $107.42, then I called her cell for a minute*
"The remaining value on your card is $107.22"

Pwned.

"I'm so choked. Way to burst my bubble"

not much...

So not much has happened recently.
Starting to stress because I have 3 consecutive exams from Mon-Wed, plus an essay.
And I didn't start studying until yesterday for one of the courses.
But some randoms...

- my wisdom tooth is infected again. my gums are mad swollen.
- i lost my 4 day old 4gb USB. die.
- OTH is SO good this season. i gasp at the end of every ep. it was so nice seeing Stephen Colletti in the last ep. he's still such a cutiepie wahahahaha.
- some funny quotes:

"What's the weather like tomorrow?"
"Hot and Sunny"

*Next day, it's rainy and gloomy*

"Ali!!! WTF. I was wearing my sunglasses and summer-y shirt all day today!!!"

I was literally rofl-ing when this happened, I know it doesn't sound funny when it's typed out but i fell off my bed laughing!! Cause a few weeks ago...

"What's the weather like tomorrow?"
"Cold and rainy"

*Next day, it's warm and sunny*

"ALI!!!!!!! I'VE BEEN WEARING MY RAINCOAT ALL DAY AND EVERYONE WAS STARING!!!!!!!!!"

AHAHHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

- so i swear the weather forecast on my iGoogle lies. or it probs just hates Em.
- there's a flu going around in HK right now. i'm quite paranoid now, not gonna lie.
- is it just me or has Halley Berry been preggers for a hella long time now. it seems like it's been more than a year already...must be just me.
- i am now eating my 8th cup noodle.
- so i now have a travel engine. prices are comparable to zuji, expedia, and etc. bookmark it: www.ytbtravel.com/alikoh or Click Here
- i must study.

just do it.

Is it creepy to say that I really enjoy reading a specific handful of rando xanga pages--ppl that i discovered/stalked/whatever during my asianavenue days? Well, every so often, till this day, I would check to see if they have any updates or even a sign of life...only cause a lot of them has stopped blogging for so long.

Well, luckily, a selected few has jumped back onto the blogging bandwagon. It's really interesting to see how much has happened to them over these past couple of years. The content of their entries has changed significantly during this period of time--from the topics they write about, to their style of writing--i'm attracted to wittiness, to the amount of self-reflection they do, the deepness, or sometimes even the randomness and subtle messages they ever so often write--I find it all so interesting.

I apologize for sounding so incredibly creepy right now. But unfortunately, this is what I invested my time into as a teen...reading other ppl's blogs, looking at their webpages etc etc. It was my way of saying, "I read a book" today. It sounds absurd, treating xanga blogs as literature, but some of them are really like novels. But yeah, there's really no way to not sound stalker-ish about this, so I once again, apologize.

Anyway, so back to what I'm trying to say. I've noticed that a lot of these ppl are entering or have already entered the corporate world. They all grew up so fast. They all seem to have direction and a good grasp of what they want in the future--maybe that's why I was so attracted to their blogs in the first place. And they're all doing extremely well right now. I'm happy they're all doing well, but then at the same time, it got me asking myself.....what the blood have I been doing all this time...?

The guest speaker from yesterday said that her main goal was to start a business before she hit 30. And she did--with such confidence and pride. The whole time she was speaking, I was thinking to myself, "Dayuuum, this woman is so full of herself". But I later thought, she is, because she can, and she has every right to be.

I was also on Xiao Zhu's English forum earlier, reading the translation of this book he wrote...that I bought. It took him a long, long time to get to where he is right now. He said that his path is so curved that he sometimes has no choice but to work harder until he reaches a corner (it sounds weird when it's directly translated from chinese to english. but i think i get the gist of it).

Now, I'm not saying that I want the exact same goal as the guest speaker, or to be rich and famous like Xiao Zhu, but if I could only have a fraction of her confidence or any of these bloggers' determination or Xiao Zhu's perseverance, I think I could get somewhere. I would not have put off this summer's job search until NOW, and I would at least have a proper resume/cover letter by now. It's almost mid-March, and I'm leaving HK in about 2 months, and guess what, I have nothing. I half-assed the search, no good grasp of the companies in Singapore, no idea where I want to apply to, nothing. I think about it every night before I go to bed, and often convince myself that there's still time.

I just know that this is a preview of what's to come next year during 4th year. I'm going to keep putting it off, while all my friends become full-timers and then be stuck at home after May and rot and die. Ok, so I'm exaggerating--or maybe not.

My biggest fear: trying and still failing. I'll admit that I don't take rejection well. In fact, I can't take it--hence why I don't try. And yet, I'm still a person of pride and a huge part of me just wants to prove to her that I can do it. I can. I can...I can......But gaaaaaaaaaarghhhh............can I really?

我的妈呀......this post is going nowhere.

But time's a-wasting. All this dilly dallying is getting me nowhere. Eff pride. There is no pride when there's nothing to be proud about. like duh. So. JUST DO IT ALISON KOH. My gawd. Like she said yesterday, paraphrased..."if there's a day where you're not bettering/improving yourself...then you've wasted that day."

that hit the spot.
pwned.

pre-crunch?

slept at 4 last night, playing around with blogger.
this resembles my past xanga sites.
plain and dark.
i like.

went to class today, another guest speaker in entrepreneurship. this time, she was OK. she has an impressive background--half Shanghainese, half Dutch, a MKTG major from UST, worked in several companies before opening her own Mktg Consulting Firm. interesting person. me and Ktran were amused by how much the locals sucked up to her after class. it was almost disgusting to watch. they swarmed to her...like...asian...flies. i, personally, really wanted to shake her hand, and introduce myself, and ya know, do the lil meet and greet, but yeah, no dice. them locals are just too damn "ging".

then after Brand, me, Ktran, and Debra went to LG5 for dinner. wow, it was good. i had spicy curry spaghetti. it was so good. i licked it clean guy. then we had a McDs cone. totally not necessary.

then headed to the library with Dan & Ktran later. sooooo......ummmmmmm.........totally UNproductive. i slept and ate so much candy that when i got back, i had to brush my teeth twice. ya. Joe joined us a little later.

"Stud-DDDYYYYYYYYY, Bud-DDDDYYYYYYYY, Fun-NNNNYYYYYYYYY"
"Every accent turns brown, whether it's Italian, French, Singporean...they all turn brown"

"Why do you have so many pictures of that girl on your ipod"
"Cause I like her. I like to look at her makeup and clothes"
"Ok. So now we all know you appreciate the beauty of the same sex"
"...That's like a nice way of saying that you're a lesbian"

"Nice hair"
"It's my sex hair"

"arghhhhhhhh school is interfering with my traveling plans"

Yeah. So assignments and midterms are right around the corner.
No more doing nothing...

a taste of s'pore.

Woke up around 9 something (thanks Ktran) to get ready for early dimsum with Wai Zin, Chong Shin, and Ktran. Got to Causeway Bay around 11 something, and had a dimsum FEAST. it was good. it was damn good. it was a nice place too. not loud at all. very quiet, and very nicely decorated, and good service. pricey, but, food was naaice.

then Ktran headed back to UST, while, the 3 of us went to Wan Chai to get WaiZin's egg tarts. then we went to a bookstore, electronics place (got a USB finally), Hang Hau, and then to the market at Hang Hau...reminds me of S'pore's "bah sah?"...wet market. There were live chickens in cages, fish jumping out of their tanks (it was swimming on the floor), lots of fruits, veggies, and raw meat (there was an ox tail...i mean, with the fur and everything...) I felt like I was in Singapore with the 2 Singaporeans. how homey. they were more than entertaining today. couldn't stop laughing.

Then came back, took a nap for an hour (so good), and woke up and ate with them, again. They made soup with choi, squid balls, and chicken. It was good. Kinda like home food.

And man, singlish is infectious.
My english is going to get destroyed by the end of this trip.

But good day today. I enjoyed. It felt nice to speak Mandarin too.

So, no diet again I guess.
Tomorrow.

Oh yeah. JMAC (Jesse McCartney) has a new single: Leavin'.
Um, it's kinda good and the video is kinda hot :S

school schmool.

woke up at 11:30am. i'm so sorry Kerks. we'll go hiking and beach-walking soon :)
met up with Nancy, Kathy, and Ktran to go cheung K. went to east TST instead of east MK. then somehow ended up meeting Crystal at alikoh mall in the end. went to Neway to sing.

good times.

"pussyfoot? is that a pussyfoot? lemme try. hey, tastes like a pussyfoot. must be a pussyfoot"

shirley temples are delish :)

then headed back to UST, but grabbed some hot lor poh bangs at Choi Hung. soo good.

then i cleaned, sweeped, did laundry (my white clothes turned yellow. eff.)

now i'm in Ktran's room...i believe she fell asleep...again.

i have to do my hw.
hmmmmm....................
what to do.

anddddd....said goodbye to ah gor for the 2nd time. flight got delayed.
can't believe it's snowing so much this year.
i'm going to miss you!

so this is what it's like...

forgot to blog last night.
yesterday was pretty chills. class'ed, then dimsum'ed with Ktran and Kerks (yeah, we have DimSum Wednesdays now --i quite enjoyed my "sang choi"--basically lettuce in oil and soya sauce...), then computer barn'ed with Ktran for a bit, then class'ed.

then went back to rez, then met up with Ktran and headed for our walk.

it was such a niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiice day. we basically walked a full circle around our campus. we were trying to look for this beach the whole time, but there was no pathway that led to it. so we kept hitting dead ends (ex. parking lots, parks, forests with no paths)...and then we ended up back at the Turkey Flame...which is at the front of the school. but yeah, since our school is on a hill, we walked uphill....a lot. but it was good. good exercise. the water was nice. the view was nice. weather was nice. and we self-took a gajillion pics. and since Ktran is so tiny, in every picture, i looked so much bigger than her...and and...i basically looked like the man. aka. the boyFWEND ar. chi seen. we were at a park...and sat on a ledge and just kept snapping away. there were two Filipino maids with kids there too...and they must have thought we were gay or something :S .
then we went to the "dong gu" for a while and just stared out into the water.
seriously...UST does not look like a school. it's just....sighs. ho lang arrr.
it's going to be so....hard.......so hard. can't even say it.........

anyway. then we headed to LG5 for dinner with the rest of the gang. i actually got "zeen dan and choi" at Seafront. it was good. Julie was entertaining as usual. then the diet got destroyed by a McDs strawberry milkshake. eff.

then debated about going to Korea...went back to rez to do some research with Dan. but yeah, after the phonecall, no dice. whatevs. i'm ok with it. i can go or not go...but only thing is that such a good bunch is going. so yeah, that's a lil sucky. but it's ok.

then headed to Ktran's room and talked till 4am...where she fell asleep while we were ALL talking....and then me and Dan looked at each other...said "uhhhhhhh OOOOKK..." ahahahhaa...turned off the lights, and left.
it's ok Ktran. we still love you :D

TOday....woke up at 11:30am for 12pm meeting. went on till 2. ate pasta.
then came back to rez, where i watched the ep of Bai fen Bai with Cao Ge in it. he's soo cute when he dances. he looks like a little kid. he's so short and small. i watched his new MVs and they're a lil weird. but his songs are soo good.

then i took a nap at 4 till 6ish. took a shower. headed to Ktran's room, then got ready to go out to Kowloon Tong to get a new cell phone plan. finally no more getting ripped off. psh 30 cents my ASS pffftttt.

then we went to eat pasta at IKEA, SOO GOOOD. gaaaah. i don't know what it is, the food in HK is always extraaa good. (clearly, my diet has been destroyed). then we also got ice cream cones. eff. (there's always tomorrow)

then we walked around the mall. i seriously love HK. malls here open until 9+. it's great.

headed back to UST, the waan jai driver tonight drove like a madman. i felt like crap after.

then Wes & Ktran came overr and we all hea'd.
sighs. so this is what it's like saying goodbyes eh. imagine when the.......geeze louise, i don't even want to type it...but imagine when the...........term ends. geeze... can't deaal. and you're only gone for 10 days!

we were talking about it last night. everything here is so temporary. to a point where...everything almost seems unrealistic. how often do you get up and get to decide..."Oh, lets go to Thailand or Singapore or China or Korea this weekend"...? or even the simple, "lets go down to the beach after class for a walk". .....................wtb? seriously, how often...can you do that............

...and we're already halfway through. i get the chills when i think about it.

ayyyyyyy.....................................................

but.
have a saaafe and smoooth flight tomorrow ah gor.
we'll be waiting with open arms when you get back ;)
byebyeeeee.

retail therapy.

i shopped my heart away.
at alikoh mall. again.
but, by myself.
i bought lots.
i enjoyed.
happy.

it's 2 in the morning.
i'm watching Yu Le Bai fen Bai...
and giggling to myself while Kerk's sleeping.

happy :)

it doesn't feel like a tuesday...

"there were so many ants everywhere. there were THREE, and I bleww them away"

i forgot to quote that the other day.

woke up at 9:45am. ran to print out the assign for class.
class'd. then Marc cooked us lunch!!! soooooo good. gaaaaah. my first MSG-less meal. and the breakable-unbreakable-bowl. naaice.
then class'd.

then accompanied Davs to Wan Chai to get her Visa and then picked up our student Octopus cards. and then shopping at alikoh mall. ok so. definitely not happy with any of my purchases today. i tried them on when i got back Davs, and nothing looks good. and the lady gave me the wrong colour shirt in the package...i didn't even check when i was there. dumbass me. and the collars are reeeetarded. i must show you.

"ya. so i think that i've been seeing more LJs lately. there has been some ok-looking ones recently."
"no alikoh. it's just that your standards have lowered."

lmao.

so i think i'm gonna lay off the snacking. i have turned into a butterball :S

ate dinner with Ktran and Ghor at LangHam...and then headed back to UST.
skyped...and then chilled in common room.

that's it.
weather was stupendous today.
i was a bit off the whole day.
but um.
ya.
happy thoughts happy thoughts.
i miss you haesu.

Charice Pempengco.

i hate you melissa koh.
now i can't do work because i keep watching her youtube videos.
she made my stomach hurt, cause i kept holding my breath when she was singing the high notes. which was basically, every note. hence, i did not breathe period.
gah.

i was supposed to wake up at 9 to finish off the assign, but i ended up waking up at 10:45. and not finishing it up till 11:30. haha. dimsumed with Kerks and Joce, and rushed to the barn to apply for rez...except the app is non-existent. wtb. it's not up yet.

went to class x 2.
then went to eat wonton meen and read the case for tomorrow while eating.

then came back to rez. watched Xiao Zhu concert vids...um...in the dark. i think ppl thought i was chi seen...cause the vids had a lot of screaming, and i was watching it with no lights in the room, so only my laptop was on...and yeaa :S:S...no worries, he's no cult k.

then watched Charice. and now i feel like poo.

it's 9pm and this case is due in 13.5 hours. wtb is wrong with me.
byebye 7.5%

sunnnn :D school :@

whoa, didn't post last night. i totally forgot. after such an intense "study" session, i packed up, and went straight to bed.

the weather was more than perfect yesterday. it was sunny, breezy, and the campus was looking more gorgeous than ever. so i woke up around noon, brought my pink folder with my distastrous notes, stuffed it in my bag and went to go for lunch...in my pjs...by myself. haha.
ate, and organized my notes at the same time.
my folder is now clean, but heavy.
the papers here in HK are longer, and so they don't fit my binder. but i refuse to buy binders here...and so...i keep it all in a folder. but it gets messy after every lecture...and so...it requires cleaning on a weekly basis.
anyway, then i went to McDs to get a red bean pie (not that naaice) and a chocolate milkshake...and then i went to go explore zee BEACH! GAAAAAAAAAH IN LOVE IN LOVE. there were sailboats in the water (a purple one too!), ppl fishing (a local couple), ppl sleeping on those steps/rocks thingies...and yaaaaaaa.......i just stared out into the waters for a good hour...played Xiao Zhu songs on cell phone...and just chillllllllled in the sun.
it was good.

then.....................decided it was time to go back, did laundry, showered, chilled with Wes, then dinner with Joce and Wes, then "studied" :S:S:S:S:S i wrote 3 sentences for a 3 page assign that is due tomorrow. gah. oh. i also dropped my laptop on the floor today, and the corner cracked :)

woke up at 9:30 today, and went to St. Andrews with Anna. It's an international church, so it was very interesting. EVeryone was basically a foreigner, lots of old British ppl, some Korean, some Chinese...i was sleeping through half the thing, but once the Pastor spoke, his humor kept me awake. I really wanted to meet him just cause I was really curious about his background...he's Chinese, but when he was talking at first, he sounded British, but when he got excited, he'd have a S'pore accent, and then after, his English went back to normal. But I think he's Singaporean. Oh well. He seemed busy after service, so me and Anna just left.

Came back to UST, I went to go buy cup noodles and then went to visit Ktran and Ghor.

And now I'm in my sunny room..........................staring at my 3 sentences.

Sighsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
another beautiful day today though.......................