less than 24 hours.

i just woke up.
with this heavy weight in my chest.

all night i was tossing and turning.
debating whether i should sleep.

i can't help but to miss...it all.

wow.
this is going to get bad.

f!@#$er. there is no more time.

i cannot EXPRESSSSSSSSSSSS myself.
gah. i'm feeling soooooooooooo A;SLDKFJAS;DLKFJASD;LFKJASD;LFKJAL;FKAJDS.

i just want to sleeeeeep.

there was so much i wanted to do this week. SO much. but 1) the weather has been absolute SHIET 2) i'm sick 3) i'm emo.

i keep reminding myself to stay happy and grateful and enjoy the little time that i have here...but i can't help but feel sad tired unhappy angry moody upset and lazy. my room has turned into an absolute pigsty because i refuse to clean and pack. i refuse to be social and to go out and chill. i refuse to even step out of my room. it takes so much effort for me to go somewhere. and when i do, i can't help but feel like everything that i see or everywhere i go will be the...last.

and i miss you all.

rewind.

mon 26
- dimsum with ktran & mel on campus
- ktran went to cut hair
- me and mel hea'd at Hiu Lau San and Fah Yuen Gai
- Harbor City after, and ginormous hotpot for 20. kidding. it was just us 3.

tues 27
- watched Kerks packed
- our room is not walkable, at least my side isn't
- i was feeling especially anti-social today. and plus i was coughing a lot. so i just ...laid in my bed.
- until finally, i made it out towards J-La's goodbye karaoke party.

wed 28
- came back around 3 in the morning, i fell asleep till 6. J-la finally makes her appearance then and yea.
- she left at 9
- went back to nap
- ate our hotpot da bau for lunch while kdrama-ing
- made it out towards Central to meet Deonry's dad around 4
- then wandered, shopped by myself at Central and Admiralty
- came back around 9
- slept at 11

pre-game.

GG was pretty upsetting last night.

woke up around 10:30 coughing my lungs out.

OTH is done too i think. ending left me going ask;djfalskdjfa;sldkf.

hea'd till 4ish when i met up with Wai Zin and friends.
went to alikoh mall, then dinner at Olympian Mall (yeeeeppp...the mall where i first saw Xiao Zhu).

oh the memories.

home schweeet hooomm.....

not so much anymore huh.

6 days left in HK.
just got back around 11pm tonight.
frickin journey and a half to get back on campus.
who knew HK was that big.

i'm mad coughing and it's almost 5AM, and i'm craving for a GG ep.

yayayayyaa.

and now...we fweeends.

round #2.
2 tapings
really really funny today.

he recognized me today.
we made eye contact (mind you, he was across the room), he did the face, and i did it back.

WAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA.

was there from 12:30 - 8

man.

saw Joe Cheng too. and a bunch of others.

success.

and i got a picture with Da Tou.
and Wu Xiong.

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

and then we went to 5fen pu and some other market after.

yeeehhhhhhhhhhhh.

-_-!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

so um.
i'm......yea. just yea. totally...yeaa.

i saw about 15+ celebs today.
well, after 6-7 hours of waiting...i think i pretty much deserved it.
there was Hei Se Hui (WenZi and TangGuo are soooo cute!!!), Fiona Sit, Leo Ku, Xiao Tian Tian etc etc etc.

and i sat BESIDE my lover for a WHOLE hour.
literally. BESIDE.
i saw the hair growing out of his chin!
he now knows me.
i talked to him.
he knows my face.
he made me do the face.
but i couldn't. cause i couldn't stop laughing, and for some reason....i felt uber SHY!!??!!? WHHYY. SINCE WHEN??????

he signed my book...and i said thank you...and he said "No Q".
-_- loser engrish.

xiao gui apologized for not signing my pictures because he thought he was really ugly in them.
so he puts his arms over my shoulders and says bring a better pic next time and he'll sign.
i dunno why, but i can't communicate with these ppl. cause i just nodded and said oh ok...
i should have been like uhhhhhh there is no more next time. i'm canadian!

but i'll see both of them again tomorrow.
wahahahhahahahahaa

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

then went to some nightmarket after.
don't even know what i did.

i'm in a daze.

oh bought a pair of black/purple cons.

and ya. took a pic with Leo Ku.
<3 you ktran ;)

WO DI MA YA.

in Taiwan :)

- flight was smooth
- went to STAGE already
- took a gajillion pics with the love alrready...he's EVERYWHERES
- got 3 of his posters already
- went to toilet restaurant
- ate a bunch of lil snacks
- saw Louisa So (蘇玉華) on the streets and took a picture with her!!! she was really reluctant though, but mehh. i winner.

but i'm now exhausted and i'm getting sick.
weather was real crap all day...
but YEEEEEEzzzzz...i luff taiwan <3

tomorrow's a big day.
must start planning and scheming now.

yepyep.

after looking at what's left in my coin purse, i guess it's been 2 pretty eventful days.

after G&T exam, LKF'ed with basically the whole entire school.
it was jammed pack with UST-ers.
it was pretty crazy, but fun nonetheless.

yesterday, didn't sleep in surprisingly. woke up at 10:30 am, but somehow loitered until 3ish (oh i remember now, i dyed my hair.)...where i went camera/contact lens shopping with KTran. i got a whole lecture on how an eyeball works (wtb!?!?!)... there were diagrams and eyeballs and arrows shooting here and there and yeaah...it was the longest eye examination in my life.

then met up with the ust crew at SushiOne, pretty good. half price after 10pm. so we ate until 11ish. walked off the food until midnight around MK, and then hit up Neway in my mall (yeah, i said my mall). we sang until 6 AM -_-. it was daylight by the time we came out, and caught the first MTR. got back to school around 7 and called it a day.

my room is a complete disaster and i need to pack for taiwan but i can't find anything.

as;lkdfjalskdjf;ladkfjaldkf

i got a new camera pour le lover.
he best look at me in the eye this time.
but YAYAYAYAYAYAA.
台湾 (小猪)，我快来了!!!!!!!!!

but i can't help but feel sad at the same time.
some ppl are going home this week and it's prob the last i'll ever see of them.
i dunnno.
as;ldkfa;dlkfajs;dlfkjas.

YEEEEEEEEaSSS.

I'M DONE BIZZZZZNATTTCCCHHH!!!!!!

HKHKHKHKHKHK!

one down and a whole lottta moress.

after brand exam, went down to ghor's massive goodbye bbq shindig.
she's going back to california to graduate on friday =)
so many faces, so many that i did not recognize. but met a few, and it was good seeing the ones that i did know and haven't talked to in a while. some of us headed back around 1am, me and joce tried staying up to wait for her, but she ended up coming back at 3. so just me, ktran, dan, and ghor chilled for a bit.

i woke up around 9 with joce to say last goodbyes. yeah. it was pretty hard. damn.

pui'ed Ktran for a bit, until she decided to sleep the day away.
then "studied" with Wai Zin and her cleaning lady friend, and i guess now my friend too.
then exam. HA. pwned.
then Seafront'd for Dan's surprise bday. he um, brought his own cake. go figure.
then made it up to the Toga roof party for about 10 mins. a glass bottle shattered on my foot (thanks JLa for the non-latex bandaid).
then chilled with Beata and JLa in JLa's room. it was my first time there and it was gooood times. we youtubed our lives away and me and Beats intro'd Jules to the world of KOOHHHREEEAAA. i hope you get badly suckered into it and fall in love with all our loves muahahahehehehahahhoho

"i want to show you my past love, Brian Joo!"
*youtubes*
*only about 5 videos come up*
"whaaat? why are there so little results? i just watched his videos last night!"
"maybe it's cause you typed in Brain Joo?"

it's now almost 2AM, i have NOT touched G&T and there's pretty much no turning back now. yep.

i am now. dying in my sleep.

p.s. (thanks for calling deonry :) i will now go buy more black clothes.)

pps. I'M SEEING MY LOVER ON WED!!! EFF EFF EFF

blechhh;laskdals;kdjfasdlkf

i don't know what this feeling that i'm feeling is...........

this mundane and not wanting to do anything and antisocial and lazy and sleepy and junk food craving and staying in and blechhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh feeeling. oh wait.
it only happens just about...every. single. day.

GG was actually mehh today. why wasn't i surprised? i think best part was Rufus and Lily. i think they're wonderful together. and i quite like Chuck Bass. he's got an accent in real life. i'm a sucker for accents.

OTH was good.

came back to room after strat and lunch. it was a gorgeous day. and i've been sitting in my room all day.

Kerk's friend is over for 3 days.

most exciting thing all day: joce made me walk with her to add money onto her card. and i found 20 bucks on the floor

hehehehahahahoohoasldkf;blechhhhhhhhhhhhhha;sldkfajs;dlkfajs;dlkfajsdlfkasd

i don't want to expect too much for Taiwan. but can't say that i'm not excited. a little worried that i'm going solo on this one. i get lost everytime i go out by myself in HK....so how am i to go from one country to another without losing my way? oh well. we'll figure it out once i pass my 3 exams (well 2).

schopppppeeee-ng.

woke up at 12.
slept around 4 something last night, watching youtube vids :S

did laundry, had a cup noodle. it LOOKED super spicy, but it wasn't. disappointed.

drama'd until 5ish. complained to Kerks about my lack of life and she told me to go get some retail therapy. and so i did.

i got to Central around 7. discovered a little alleyway of stores. then went to H&M. it's huge! got a purple dress. muahahaha. i kinda got lost after. but managed to follow a rando couple to the MTR. then went to TST...and bought hairdye, a tank, a purple slipover, and an eyeliner.
there were these sick black boots, only 70 HKD, looked good, but it was so high, i knew i wouldn't be able to walk in them. but i should have just bought them anyway, just to stare and look at them at home.

got back to UST not too long ago.
hmmmmmmmmmmmm :)

but um. what to do with 3 finals this week? uhhdookhae?
my korean is coming back by the by.
boy i sure do miss kdramas.

there was a huge earthquake in SiChuan today.
yikes. a lot of ppl died.
apparently even Beijing and Thailand felt it.
sad. i hope no one traveled to SiChuan this weekend.

drama.

uh oh.

thanks to esther oh, started watching 3 dads 1 mom.

watched kungfu dunk.

skyped with curry chicken balls.
haven't heard her voice since december.
<333333

stayed in all day.
did nada.

eat eat eat!

fri 9th
- finished brand at 5pm. thanks so much ktran and ghor
- seafront'd and watched 2 eps of bai fen bai
- napped at 7, set alarm till 7:30, intending to go out after nap with ktran, but didn't wake up till 8:15...went to wake up ktran at 9. instead, just hea'd in her room for 1 hour. then couldn't figure out what to do, went back to my room. fell asleep at 11:30 after watching a crappy korean movie. bah.

sat 10th
- woke up at 10:30 am
- dimsumed at UST's Chinese restaurant. cheaper than LG1? my gosh. ate with joce, kerks, ktran, gael, anna, and mike?
- then headed to Fah Yuen Gai with Ktran, but it was raining, and we bailed and went to Langham Place. we were there from 1:30ish to 9PM!!! GAAAH. we walked around at first, then Honeymoon Dessert, then walked (Hotcha was at the mall today!), then bought movie tix for What Stays in Vegas, then bubble tea'd and snacked, then watched movie (horrible seats, but such a cuuute movie, laughed and aww'd so much), then H&M'd a bit, then Joce and Kerks met up with us and we had Thai for dinner, and then headed towards Alikoh mall and the girls loved it!!!! yayyy. but seriously, today was a full day of food. we ate every other hour. wow.
- back at UST now.

"yut TEEN" vs. "yut yut"
hehh?

b4 i forget...

tues 6th
- strat pres
- g&t meeting (i love this group)
- exchange dinner (mehh)
- GG was EFFING NUTS! OTH was nice :)

wed 7th
- "studied" until entre
- went to brand for class
- failed entre (100 MCs, i didn't know 47. I didn't even buy the text for this class)
- Kerks cooked pasta, chilled in room, wrote CV

thurs 8th
- strat class (hehe)
- g&t pres (ehh)
- booked my Taiwan ticket! yeeyee. it was expensive tho. but GUESS WHO I GET TO SEE. well hopefully. ♥♥♥♥. i hope he won't act like a jerk.
- Christine brought me to Prince Edward to cut my hair because apparently my head looked like an astronaut/mushroom
- she left after the person spent 20 minutes washing my hair :S
- the hair looks exactly the same, just slightly thinner
- shopped @ Fa Yuen Gai by myself. think it's my new favourite place.
- came back to UST around 7:30, seafront'd, "worked" on brand
- then LKF'd after :O:O:O
- mmmhm.

+vism.

this positive attitude is doing wonders.

i'm enjoying the lack of sleep, the endless meetings, editting horrible fob english, pure wing-age of presentations, my skull shirt under my blazer, my group members finding out for the first time after 9320350 meetings that i actually know cantonese, the disgusting humid weather, and my hoh fun noodle soup (i always get double the noodle now).

i am enjoying and absorbing it all in.

YEHH v^o^v HK!!!!!

-_-

it'll all be oooooooooook.

knife me in zee eye.

PSH @ Ktran's blog. WHATEVS.
who in their right mind can stay positive after staying 10 hours in a common room.
B*****************************************.

but. i still love you all.
-_-

i slept at 6:30 am last night. wtb.
it was bright outside.
but got to talk to jufffffffffs.
can't believe some ppl's exchanges are completely over.

k. lets not talk aboot it.4

good'ay.
eff.

schu-ust lovin'.

get it? schulich + ust = schuust
pronounced like schoost.
hehe.

no?

ok le.

i agree with davina.
i'd do today everyday except i'd go broke.
sighsssssssssssssssssssss.

but something's wrong with me. i can't stop peeing and i have crazy fatigue.
so since my friday night last night was so eventful and just craaaajeeee...i went to bed at 10:30pm. except i couldn't sleep until 12:30 cause the mother called and since i took a nap during the day, it was that much harder falling asleep. i set the alarm to 8:45am today, but snoozed it until 11.

davs and joce came over for a while, then me and davs went for dimsum.
chatted until 3:30ish...

somehow killed time until 7:30, where 4 schulichers and 3 ust-ers went to Sai Kung for seafood dinner! mmmmmmmmmmmmm..........sooo good. it's really cool there. dunno why i don't go there more often. then had honeymoon dessert (3rd time this week)...had some pretty funny videos and pics.

just got back not too long ago...bumped into the largest bug in the whole entire world on the way back....you've gotta see pics of this thing. it's mad big and fugly.

k shower time...i smell like fish and crabs.

Quote of the day: Even with all the SPF 60 that I slather all over myself...I change races when I tan—I turn into a black person.

friday blues.

AH this is such an alikoh experience! No lights, sleeping when it’s not bedtime, sad music! I can’t stand it! No wonder you’re so emo!
- JYOUNG

today i woke up at 9:30am to edit a paper. effing early. i thought i had a meeting at 11, that's why. but it turned out to be at 2. i was done editting around 11ish. dunno what i did until 2, but time passed, and we all met up, finished around 4:30. then went to give olive tsang my app for transcript. she was wearing purple today. but she didn't seem very friendly today, so i did not compliment on her purple wardrobe. i then went to PnShop to buy bread and cookies. went back to rez, facebooked, and was about to take a nap until Joce walked into my room and complained about my dark room and sad music and my weird sleeping schedule.

but she then left me be and i took an hour nap, and she came back at 7pm.

we then went to dinner at 8 and i met more europeans. hilarious.

and now, it's a friday night, and i'm in the common room, in the dark.
hmmmm.........
.................................ya................................
ugh.

mariah carey and nick cannon? wtb. since when?

split soy sauce vs. spilt milk.

so i'm TOTALLY effed. but um, i'm TOTALLY not showing it.

i am such a bitch at group meetings.
i don't give any input, i glare and stare, and constantly ask if we're finished.
i think i asked about 5 times today..."are we done yet?" "so we're done right?" "so i can go now ya?" "um, can i leave now, please?"

woke up at 10:30am.
meeting finished around 12:30. i got myself a big mac. i was craving mcDs today.
read J-La's blog and found myself rolling in bed with my feet kicking in the air...in laughter...for a good 10 minutes. i can't believe you hugged him and talked to him after all those lies!!!! but nicely done. then read magazines for a while (thanks melvin!) and then fell asleep until 3:30.

woke up and found myself on facebook for 3 hours staring at ktran's and nat's pics from yesterday. good job ktran. proud of you. 4 tagged albums in one day for an event that happened a whole day ago! my gawd. what a record.

then chitchatted with wai zin for a bit. chased her into her room to take a pic of her face, and ended up locking myself out my room. sighs. (we have to pay $10 everytime we get locked out)

then ktran and ghor and melvin used the cutest way to lure me into having dinner with them. of course, i choked and went. ate sushi. found out that ghor is the biggest klutz ever. spilt wasabi and soy sauce and dropped the biggest pork cutlet piece on the floor and evil stares from many and gay how-many-faces-you-can-do-in-10s-video and cheap tees and mango desserts.

came back around 11ish, and guess what i did right away.........yeeeeeeeeeeep...fbfbfbfbfbbfb.

and then Joce came in and gave Joce Weekly Sesh #201

"did you see my disney pictures"
"ya there are 4 albums"
*checks my wall*
"oh you're here (aka you wrote on my wall)"
"NO SHIT"

"are you going to study for finals"
"i'm JYOUNG, i always study" *sketch face*

"don't think of it as having one month left here, but think of it as you getting one whole month to be in HK"

"there's no point in crying over split milk and in things that can't be changed"

"i hate how you make me think all the time"

"i think it's my face cause it's so big that it amplifies my emotions"

i also made her read j-la's blog outloud.
it was the greatest 7 minutes ever.
she was out of breath and red in the face after.

it is now 12:43am.
wo de ma ya.

class? what class?

so i've been skipping my fair share of classes this week...

sunday 27:
- stayed in 2nd floor common room all day to do no work

monday 28:
- went to one class
- chilled in my room in the dark
- went to take a walk by the waters (lovin it lovin it but emo'in it emo'in it)
- went to watch Forbidden Kingdom @ Admiralty

tuesday 29:
- went to one class
- went out with ktran & melvin (wooh) to get non-existent haircut
- had PHO! YAY. but it wasn't good
- went back to UST
- watched GG (how effing good was this ep? my gawd. draaaaammmma)
- then went to Cheung K @ APM until 4:30AM

wednesday 30:
- went to no class
- yet woke up at 8:30 AM (i've never woken up this early even for a class)
- went to Disneyland with Schulichersssss
- fun fun fun
- got pwned by Donald Duck (the shaftedness continues even in the land of hope and dreams)
- scared Buzz Lightyear
- was prob the same height as Mickey and Minnie
- got to hug Pooh
- told Goofy to pull up his pants (in Chinese)
- there was dimsum at disney. how kickass is that.
- left around 6:30 PM
- had dinner @ TST
- didn't get to say bye to ah ma though. but said bye to peru.
- i was super wiped out near the 2nd half of the day, but it was a good day.
- oh yeah. so while we all got Disney'd today, J-La got Raymond Lam'd. and boy was she lam'd.

"so where are you girls heading?"
"uhhhhhhhhhhh we're going for breakfast"
"breakfast? isn't she eating right now? is that bread? so healthy."
"uhhhhhhhhhhh oh ya ya ya. she eats bread all the time. anytime. anyplace."

oh ya.
um. my xiao zhu picture update.
apparently xiao zhu is totally full of himself and not nice at all.
so i'm beginning to have second thoughts.

oh ya.
i also have 1HKD in my bank account.
it was such a kodak moment.

"i feel weird when i don't see julie la everyday"

oh ya.
i'm effed for this weekend and the coming week.
i have 2 meetings, 3 projects (group reports: 2 semi-half-assed-done, 1 not started), 3 presentations (possibly 4, i don't even know the details), and a final exam.
and then 3 more finals the week after.

what the hell have i done to myself.